Saturday, July 24, 2010
Friday, July 23, 2010
Summer Break
Wow! I haven't updated this thing for ages! That's kinda sad. Maybe I need to go on another trip overseas so that I can reestablish the habit of blogging :)
Someone said the other day, "summer is half over". I'm like, "No! I have been in school for 8 weeks. I haven't even started summer yet!" Actually, I have officially been on summer break for one week now. This is the first real break from school that I have had in 13 months. Even while on Christmas and Spring vacation from EITC, I still had my U of I online classes that I had to work on. It feels kinda weird to be home and not have the pressure of studying. In fact, now that I have had a few days off, I am excited to get started again. I don't want to lose the momentum that has already been established. However, I probably should relax and enjoy the next month because next semester I am taking my two most dreaded classes....College Algebra and Speech. Ug.
To add to the "weirdness" of having a break, my "family" moved to Boise 3 weeks ago. That has been tough. I have been in Blackfoot almost 14 years with them and now they are far away. They have truly been a big part of my life and now I am being forced to really find my own identity in the Lord apart from them. Yeah, Boise is only 4 hours away so I can still visit, but I can no longer pop in on a Friday morning for coffee or hang out after work.
I'm still wrestling with what I am doing in Blackfoot. I like my job, I love the people I work with, and now that I have moved to an upstairs apartment, I love where I live. I am so blessed and thankful for what I have. I just can't seem to find a sustained state of peace where I am not wondering if I am missing God by making the decision to stay. I just keep plugging along day after day and nothing is changing. People around me are getting married, having babies, and basically going somewhere in life. I am going to school to do something that I don't really particularly enjoy, but somehow I think it will open doors for me down the road. I am trying to be faithful with what I have at my hand to do and be content with this prolonged season of life. It just gets discouraging when nothing changes...
Regardless of what I feel or see with my natural eyes, I have to stay in place of faith and trust that the Lord sees and knows. He is faithful and good to me. I may feel stuck in the waiting room, but He is after my heart and is more concerned about the process of trust rather than answering a prayer. But perhaps the trust may have to come by dropping everything here and doing something crazy....
Someone said the other day, "summer is half over". I'm like, "No! I have been in school for 8 weeks. I haven't even started summer yet!" Actually, I have officially been on summer break for one week now. This is the first real break from school that I have had in 13 months. Even while on Christmas and Spring vacation from EITC, I still had my U of I online classes that I had to work on. It feels kinda weird to be home and not have the pressure of studying. In fact, now that I have had a few days off, I am excited to get started again. I don't want to lose the momentum that has already been established. However, I probably should relax and enjoy the next month because next semester I am taking my two most dreaded classes....College Algebra and Speech. Ug.
To add to the "weirdness" of having a break, my "family" moved to Boise 3 weeks ago. That has been tough. I have been in Blackfoot almost 14 years with them and now they are far away. They have truly been a big part of my life and now I am being forced to really find my own identity in the Lord apart from them. Yeah, Boise is only 4 hours away so I can still visit, but I can no longer pop in on a Friday morning for coffee or hang out after work.
I'm still wrestling with what I am doing in Blackfoot. I like my job, I love the people I work with, and now that I have moved to an upstairs apartment, I love where I live. I am so blessed and thankful for what I have. I just can't seem to find a sustained state of peace where I am not wondering if I am missing God by making the decision to stay. I just keep plugging along day after day and nothing is changing. People around me are getting married, having babies, and basically going somewhere in life. I am going to school to do something that I don't really particularly enjoy, but somehow I think it will open doors for me down the road. I am trying to be faithful with what I have at my hand to do and be content with this prolonged season of life. It just gets discouraging when nothing changes...
Regardless of what I feel or see with my natural eyes, I have to stay in place of faith and trust that the Lord sees and knows. He is faithful and good to me. I may feel stuck in the waiting room, but He is after my heart and is more concerned about the process of trust rather than answering a prayer. But perhaps the trust may have to come by dropping everything here and doing something crazy....
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