Here and Now: Summer Break

Friday, July 23, 2010

Summer Break

Wow! I haven't updated this thing for ages! That's kinda sad. Maybe I need to go on another trip overseas so that I can reestablish the habit of blogging :)

Someone said the other day, "summer is half over". I'm like, "No! I have been in school for 8 weeks. I haven't even started summer yet!" Actually, I have officially been on summer break for one week now. This is the first real break from school that I have had in 13 months. Even while on Christmas and Spring vacation from EITC, I still had my U of I online classes that I had to work on. It feels kinda weird to be home and not have the pressure of studying. In fact, now that I have had a few days off, I am excited to get started again. I don't want to lose the momentum that has already been established. However, I probably should relax and enjoy the next month because next semester I am taking my two most dreaded classes....College Algebra and Speech. Ug.

To add to the "weirdness" of having a break, my "family" moved to Boise 3 weeks ago. That has been tough. I have been in Blackfoot almost 14 years with them and now they are far away. They have truly been a big part of my life and now I am being forced to really find my own identity in the Lord apart from them. Yeah, Boise is only 4 hours away so I can still visit, but I can no longer pop in on a Friday morning for coffee or hang out after work.

I'm still wrestling with what I am doing in Blackfoot. I like my job, I love the people I work with, and now that I have moved to an upstairs apartment, I love where I live. I am so blessed and thankful for what I have. I just can't seem to find a sustained state of peace where I am not wondering if I am missing God by making the decision to stay. I just keep plugging along day after day and nothing is changing. People around me are getting married, having babies, and basically going somewhere in life. I am going to school to do something that I don't really particularly enjoy, but somehow I think it will open doors for me down the road. I am trying to be faithful with what I have at my hand to do and be content with this prolonged season of life. It just gets discouraging when nothing changes...

Regardless of what I feel or see with my natural eyes, I have to stay in place of faith and trust that the Lord sees and knows. He is faithful and good to me. I may feel stuck in the waiting room, but He is after my heart and is more concerned about the process of trust rather than answering a prayer. But perhaps the trust may have to come by dropping everything here and doing something crazy....

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Key Verses of My Life

"Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect." Romans 12:2

"...we have not ceased to pray for you and to ask that you may be filled with the knowledge of of His will in all spiritual wisdom and understanding, so that you may walk in a manner worthy of the Lord, to please Him in all respects, bearing fruit in every good work and increasing in the knowledge of God; strengthened with all power, according to His glorious might for the attaining of all steadfastness and patience; joyously giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified us to share in the inheritance of the saints of light. For He delivered us from the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of His beloved Son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins." Colossians 1:9-14

"And God is able to make all grace abound to you, that always having all sufficiency in everything, you may have abundance for every good deed." 2 Cor 9:8

"...that He would grant to you according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power through His Spirit in the inner man; so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; and that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with al the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ which surpasses all knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fulness of God." Eph.3:16-19

"They looked to Him and were radiant, and their faces shall never be ashamed." Ps 34:5

"Blessed is she who believed that there would be a fulfillment of what had been spoken to her by the Lord." Luke 1:45

"The Lord your God is in your midst, a victorious warrior. He will exult over you with joy, He will quiet you with His love. He will rejoice over you with shouts of joy." Zephaniah 3:17

Favorite Quotes

"What God gives in answer to our prayers will always be the thing we most urgently need, and it will always be sufficient." - Elisabeth Elliot

"When your heart speaks, take good notes." - Judith Campbell

"Let nothing perturb you, nothing frighten you. All things pass. God does not change." - Mother Teresa

"An adventure is, by its nature, a thing that comes to us. It is a thing that chooses us, not a thing we choose." - CK CHESTERTON"

Avoiding danger is no safer in the long run than outright exposure. Life is either a daring adventure or nothing." - Helen Keller

It’s easy to be brave from a safe distance. - Aesop

"There is acertain relief in change, even though it be from bad to worse! As I often found in traveling in a stagecoach, that is a comfort to shift one’s position and be bruised in a new place." - Washington Irving

"Strange travel suggestions are dancing lessons from God" - Kurt Vonnegut Jr.

"If you think you can, you can. And if you think you can’t you’re right." - Mary Kay Ash

"If you like someone, you will give them your time and your money...but if you love someone, you will give them your friends."

"We shall not cease from exploration, and the end of all our exploring will be to arrive where we started and know the place for the first time." - T.S. Elliot

"Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy, he who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him.: Psalm 126:5-6

"Experience is what we get when we don’t get what we want." - Randy Pausch

"The best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up." - Paul Valey

"A man of ordinary talent will always be ordinary, whether he travels or not, but a man of superior talent…will go to pieces if he remains forever in the same place." - Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart

"Our happiest moments…seem to come when we stumble upon one thing while in pursuit of something else. "- Lawrence Block"

"Your life is an occasion - rise to it." - Mr. Magorium's Wonder Emporium

"Character may be manifested in the great moments, but it is made in the small ones." - Phillips Brooks

"If you haven't got all the things you want, be grateful for the things you don't have that you don't want." - Unknown

"Excellence is to do a common thing in an uncommon way." - Booker T. Washington

"Live so that your friends can defend you but never have to." - Arnold H. Glasow

"I soon realized that no journey carries one far unless, as it extends into the world around us, it goes an equal distance into the world within." - Lillian Smith

'Then the time came when the risk it took to remain tight in the bud was more painful tha the risk it took to bloom." - Anais Nun

"When it is dark enough, you can see the stars." - Persian Proverb

"Not hammer strokes, but the dance of water, sings the pebbles into perfection." Rabindranth Tagone